This Up Next: 6-Month Mammo Check

Next Friday is my first mammogram on the left side since my diagnosis and treatment. I am not overly worried something will be found. I had the surgeries, they came back clear. I had the radiation, "rads" to us insiders, and I'm on the protective hormones now for the last 5 months. I feel well insulated from the narrow possibility that there are more microcalcifications like what they found a year ago. Yes, there is a smidgen of a chance there is some area that all these treatments somehow skipped over, but I am choosing to believe chances of that are slim.

The appointment brings up discomfort in that it reminds me of and puts me back in that place and time when I was "fighting cancer". Going into the office to meet with the oncologists is an entrance back into that club. I am okay with it while I'm there. I'm so incredibly lucky that my history was a quick and easy one, but as I look around there, it is also a reminder of how badly it could've gone or what else could happen.

I will go through this follow-up check, and the next one, and the next one. I also plan to continue to do what I can to live a great life in the meantime. I will go to exciting places, laugh a lot with my family and friends, and make plans for new experiences and adventures.

Every six months I will step back into that club, and silently give thanks I am only there for a moment, no matter what happens.